Saturday, February 17, 2007
Mon obsession du jour
Hi, today I was writing a news story for the website about fat activism. I started coming across all these websites that sell fat women's clothes. Then I found a website that sells "sexy plus size lingerie." The stuff looks ok, but you never know what quality you're getting when you are mail ordering. Plus, if I keep gaining and losing weight, there could be problems with things fitting. This is why I've never gotten any tattoos, cuz I don't know what'd happen with getting fatter and skinnier.
I talked with Dr. Inkio this evening, and he was like, you should check out Stormy Leather, since they are here in the Bay Area.
I also found a website that has activewear in plus sizes, including gym clothes. I will have to buy some of that stuff. It's so cheap that I think I can order two of some things (different sizes). They even have bike shorts!
I'm not super-into the fat woman identity thing. Like, in terms of fetishwear, I feel like I'd have to get one of those bras, and some halter-type things, and some tights, and then it's like, what? a corset? I used to have some PVC pants and some sexy boots. I also had a sexy dress or two. But the whole women's clothes thing is very uncomfortable. I had to dress "up" this week at work, and I had so much anxiety about it!! I was trying to wear a blouse and sweater I had gotten at Lane Bryant this winter. I forgot that both items are v-necks. Since no clothes ever fit me right, the blouse got all bunched-up around the neck. And that looked really bad under the sweater. Dammit! So I just wore the blouse. I felt really exposed- I never expose my chest! And it's so pale, compared to my face and neck. And I sometimes have acne...at least I didn't this week. Our interior designer/building mgr said I looked very nice. But it felt so uncomfortable!
So my question is, can I pull off fetishwear-- will I look "sexy?"
At least I'll have some clothes I can wear to parties. And if I ever have any partners to play with... somehow hunnybunch and I don't interact on that level. For some reason, I always end up with bottoms, and I'm really more of a bottom most of the time.
Things are better btw the two of us, btw. We have even been having "relations." Our four-year anniversary was this week!!
email me at haydees@gmail.com
I talked with Dr. Inkio this evening, and he was like, you should check out Stormy Leather, since they are here in the Bay Area.
I also found a website that has activewear in plus sizes, including gym clothes. I will have to buy some of that stuff. It's so cheap that I think I can order two of some things (different sizes). They even have bike shorts!
I'm not super-into the fat woman identity thing. Like, in terms of fetishwear, I feel like I'd have to get one of those bras, and some halter-type things, and some tights, and then it's like, what? a corset? I used to have some PVC pants and some sexy boots. I also had a sexy dress or two. But the whole women's clothes thing is very uncomfortable. I had to dress "up" this week at work, and I had so much anxiety about it!! I was trying to wear a blouse and sweater I had gotten at Lane Bryant this winter. I forgot that both items are v-necks. Since no clothes ever fit me right, the blouse got all bunched-up around the neck. And that looked really bad under the sweater. Dammit! So I just wore the blouse. I felt really exposed- I never expose my chest! And it's so pale, compared to my face and neck. And I sometimes have acne...at least I didn't this week. Our interior designer/building mgr said I looked very nice. But it felt so uncomfortable!
So my question is, can I pull off fetishwear-- will I look "sexy?"
At least I'll have some clothes I can wear to parties. And if I ever have any partners to play with... somehow hunnybunch and I don't interact on that level. For some reason, I always end up with bottoms, and I'm really more of a bottom most of the time.
Things are better btw the two of us, btw. We have even been having "relations." Our four-year anniversary was this week!!
email me at haydees@gmail.com
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