Thursday, January 19, 2006
(End of) Relationship Letter
(T.),
Well, now I feel bad that I've taken so long to write to you. I was just trying to wait until I was less mad, but now I am dealing with my annual major cat health crisis. And my semi-annual lack of car crisis. I just want to get this over with.
Basically, here is my problem: you said you were coming back from your parents' around the date of the Sept 24th protest. I emailed you approximately that Monday, since I hadn't heard from you. You called me in November. I felt really hurt that it seemed that you hadn't noticed that we hadn't talked in two months.
I know that neither one of us likes to call the other 500 times when we are trying to get in touch with each other, and I've told you a bazillion times that I'm not going to try very many times to get ahold of you. I don't want to seem- to your housemates, myself, or you- like I'm hunting you down or something. I guess that you must feel the same way about calling or emailing me.
Whatever the answer is, maybe we just shouldn't be friends. Maybe our communication styles and needs are too different. Or too similar. It sucks when people ask me questions about you, or when I see you and don't talk to you, but I just haven't been ready. You know how I get. And I don't want to have a blowout over this- we've done it too many times in the past, and I've had it. It feels like it's not worth it this time.
I always feel sad when a friendship ends, or when a more than friends relationship ends (whatever it was), but it seems like it ended that last time I saw you in September (or sometime before), and I just wasn't told about it.
email me at haydees@gmail.com
Well, now I feel bad that I've taken so long to write to you. I was just trying to wait until I was less mad, but now I am dealing with my annual major cat health crisis. And my semi-annual lack of car crisis. I just want to get this over with.
Basically, here is my problem: you said you were coming back from your parents' around the date of the Sept 24th protest. I emailed you approximately that Monday, since I hadn't heard from you. You called me in November. I felt really hurt that it seemed that you hadn't noticed that we hadn't talked in two months.
I know that neither one of us likes to call the other 500 times when we are trying to get in touch with each other, and I've told you a bazillion times that I'm not going to try very many times to get ahold of you. I don't want to seem- to your housemates, myself, or you- like I'm hunting you down or something. I guess that you must feel the same way about calling or emailing me.
Whatever the answer is, maybe we just shouldn't be friends. Maybe our communication styles and needs are too different. Or too similar. It sucks when people ask me questions about you, or when I see you and don't talk to you, but I just haven't been ready. You know how I get. And I don't want to have a blowout over this- we've done it too many times in the past, and I've had it. It feels like it's not worth it this time.
I always feel sad when a friendship ends, or when a more than friends relationship ends (whatever it was), but it seems like it ended that last time I saw you in September (or sometime before), and I just wasn't told about it.
email me at haydees@gmail.com
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Anxiety Attack!!!
My cat is sick, possibly very sick, and we have to decide what steps to take for treatment. They can range from $1000 or more to $35 for treatment, with us administering lots of meds that she hates in the middle.
I have to rent a car today, and I am having an anxiety attack. I'm assuming that the two are linked. I had an anxiety attack the last time I had to drive. Agh!
I just wanted to lie in bed and read harry potter, and now i'm going to have to walk in the rain or hail or sun, whichever it's doing at the moment, drive a car home, and...agh! And maybe miss going to the gym!
email me at haydees@gmail.com
I have to rent a car today, and I am having an anxiety attack. I'm assuming that the two are linked. I had an anxiety attack the last time I had to drive. Agh!
I just wanted to lie in bed and read harry potter, and now i'm going to have to walk in the rain or hail or sun, whichever it's doing at the moment, drive a car home, and...agh! And maybe miss going to the gym!
email me at haydees@gmail.com
