Saturday, August 28, 2004
So, yeah, I didn't go to New York. I do feel conflicted about it.
Bad I didn't go:
No exciting street fighting
No chasing after T. (or catching up with him! sniffle)
No meeting interesting people
No taking awesome photos
No learning from organizing experiences
Good I didn't go:
No injuries from NYPD/Secret Service/whoever
No all-day meetings
No rain
No hard time finding food I can eat (hard enough here)
No awkwardness about seeing this guy I went out with in college who is visiting the friend I would have stayed with this weekend
No fighting with right-wingers
No negative organizing experiences there
No regretting going
Less money owed to my hunnybunch and no money owed to the person who would have paid for my ticket
Sigh. So frustrated about the organizing experiences that I usually do have here - the garden, the website (one person has flaked on so much stuff in the last month and seems to not have evne gone to NY, so why isn't he writing anything? or writing back to me? I guess it's because I'm mad at him that he's not writing back. I know that this doesn't make sense, but otherwise it is just that now that he has a girlfriend he doesn't need his other activities or comrades, what a loser. I do have this one other theory- seasonal affective disorder. He is totally fat and depressed in the winter, unlike me- I am depressed and fatter all the time, but I still get some stuff done on a regular basis).
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Bad I didn't go:
No exciting street fighting
No chasing after T. (or catching up with him! sniffle)
No meeting interesting people
No taking awesome photos
No learning from organizing experiences
Good I didn't go:
No injuries from NYPD/Secret Service/whoever
No all-day meetings
No rain
No hard time finding food I can eat (hard enough here)
No awkwardness about seeing this guy I went out with in college who is visiting the friend I would have stayed with this weekend
No fighting with right-wingers
No negative organizing experiences there
No regretting going
Less money owed to my hunnybunch and no money owed to the person who would have paid for my ticket
Sigh. So frustrated about the organizing experiences that I usually do have here - the garden, the website (one person has flaked on so much stuff in the last month and seems to not have evne gone to NY, so why isn't he writing anything? or writing back to me? I guess it's because I'm mad at him that he's not writing back. I know that this doesn't make sense, but otherwise it is just that now that he has a girlfriend he doesn't need his other activities or comrades, what a loser. I do have this one other theory- seasonal affective disorder. He is totally fat and depressed in the winter, unlike me- I am depressed and fatter all the time, but I still get some stuff done on a regular basis).
email me at haydees@gmail.com
Monday, August 23, 2004
Well, I haven't been posting stuff cuz my Firefox browser wasn't getting along with my blogger blog hosting service. Things seem to have worked themselves out.
There's a lot to say, like am I sad or glad that I am not going to New York (sad, mostly), how my health is going, my relationship(s), how the garden is doing, etc...I am behind.
Z and I are talking about watching less TV so that we can start to read more. Nice idea, huh? Hard to put into practice, what with all the Angel and the Buffy and the Buffy and the Angel that are on all weekend.
I spent all day in bed yesterday, in a repeat of 2 weekends ago (too tired to get up). Then today we went to the city for brunch and errand running. He bought over $700 worth of computer parts, as if that would be enough to combine with his old computer parts for a new computer. Nope! His old power supply didn't work, and his case wasn't the right kind for the kind of motherboard that he bought, and his old video card sucks, and he also needs to get a faster hard disk. He went back to the store for a power supply and a copy of Red Hat Linux (8 cd's are worth it, rather than spending the week downloading and installing, for him). He still has to go back tomorrow. I bet that his monitor won't work, either, and he will have to get a sexy flat screen monitor and a nice, fast DVD player. His 8x cd player is annoyingly (to him) slow, but he refuses to replace it with a DVD/CD drive. Sniffle. How can we ever rent movies?
It is a really weird time, almost all the other people who I work on the website with are in/going to New York to protest the RNC. My other friend friends who I hang out with are staying here, but my organizing friends are all going.
I went to dinner at the Long Haul tonight and this sketchy guy asked me about the pre-RNC meeting that was going on during the dinner- he asked if there would be a Nonviolence or CD training. I tried to explain that these people had been around for a long time and didn't need the training anymore, and weren't working with the people planning the civil disobedience-type stuff, and then I was like, doh! I sort of rephrased it and he was like, oh, they just want to be more bodies in the street? And I was like, uh, yeah, that's it. Fucking cop.
I need to get focused - I get so little done these days. Yesterday was a wash, and today I did like 2 very productive hours of gardening- planted peas, prepped a bed, transplanted some starts from bangladeshi seeds, and started some lettuce. Oh, I also weeded and stirred the compost!! Busy couple of hours. I hope I planted the peas right, there is like 4 inches of straw on top of the bed. We'll see. :/
Doh, I meant to take a shower.
email me at haydees@gmail.com
There's a lot to say, like am I sad or glad that I am not going to New York (sad, mostly), how my health is going, my relationship(s), how the garden is doing, etc...I am behind.
Z and I are talking about watching less TV so that we can start to read more. Nice idea, huh? Hard to put into practice, what with all the Angel and the Buffy and the Buffy and the Angel that are on all weekend.
I spent all day in bed yesterday, in a repeat of 2 weekends ago (too tired to get up). Then today we went to the city for brunch and errand running. He bought over $700 worth of computer parts, as if that would be enough to combine with his old computer parts for a new computer. Nope! His old power supply didn't work, and his case wasn't the right kind for the kind of motherboard that he bought, and his old video card sucks, and he also needs to get a faster hard disk. He went back to the store for a power supply and a copy of Red Hat Linux (8 cd's are worth it, rather than spending the week downloading and installing, for him). He still has to go back tomorrow. I bet that his monitor won't work, either, and he will have to get a sexy flat screen monitor and a nice, fast DVD player. His 8x cd player is annoyingly (to him) slow, but he refuses to replace it with a DVD/CD drive. Sniffle. How can we ever rent movies?
It is a really weird time, almost all the other people who I work on the website with are in/going to New York to protest the RNC. My other friend friends who I hang out with are staying here, but my organizing friends are all going.
I went to dinner at the Long Haul tonight and this sketchy guy asked me about the pre-RNC meeting that was going on during the dinner- he asked if there would be a Nonviolence or CD training. I tried to explain that these people had been around for a long time and didn't need the training anymore, and weren't working with the people planning the civil disobedience-type stuff, and then I was like, doh! I sort of rephrased it and he was like, oh, they just want to be more bodies in the street? And I was like, uh, yeah, that's it. Fucking cop.
I need to get focused - I get so little done these days. Yesterday was a wash, and today I did like 2 very productive hours of gardening- planted peas, prepped a bed, transplanted some starts from bangladeshi seeds, and started some lettuce. Oh, I also weeded and stirred the compost!! Busy couple of hours. I hope I planted the peas right, there is like 4 inches of straw on top of the bed. We'll see. :/
Doh, I meant to take a shower.
email me at haydees@gmail.com
