Haydee's Blog

So, yeah, I didn't go to New York. I do feel conflicted about it.

Bad I didn't go:
No exciting street fighting
No chasing after T. (or catching up with him! sniffle)
No meeting interesting people
No taking awesome photos
No learning from organizing experiences

Good I didn't go:
No injuries from NYPD/Secret Service/whoever
No all-day meetings
No rain
No hard time finding food I can eat (hard enough here)
No awkwardness about seeing this guy I went out with in college who is visiting the friend I would have stayed with this weekend
No fighting with right-wingers
No negative organizing experiences there
No regretting going
Less money owed to my hunnybunch and no money owed to the person who would have paid for my ticket

Sigh. So frustrated about the organizing experiences that I usually do have here - the garden, the website (one person has flaked on so much stuff in the last month and seems to not have evne gone to NY, so why isn't he writing anything? or writing back to me? I guess it's because I'm mad at him that he's not writing back. I know that this doesn't make sense, but otherwise it is just that now that he has a girlfriend he doesn't need his other activities or comrades, what a loser. I do have this one other theory- seasonal affective disorder. He is totally fat and depressed in the winter, unlike me- I am depressed and fatter all the time, but I still get some stuff done on a regular basis).

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